just waiting for the cue...

I know this is going to end. in fact, I know it's going to be very soon. I'm just waiting for the cue...

once that button is pressed, it will be over forever... I know I'll miss it, I miss you already. I didn't want things to end up the way they have, but I had no control over it.

I miss the way we used to be.

there's nothing else I can do besides sit here and stare at the screen. pushing F5, waiting for it to change. I hope not. the negative adrenaline that shoots through me. my breath getting stuck. me, trembling...

stuck in between bliss and horror, I don't know what to think.

I still love you...

널 미워해.... 미우나 고우나..?