I did it again...

I showed my weakness. I couldn't hold myself back.

I should have stayed firm. remained silent. why am I doing this?

apart of me doesn't want to lose you, apart of me doesn't want you out of my life. but then there are going to be so much problems. I've been through this before. next thing that happens, one reply, silence, another reply, silence...

then I'd have to apologise for not doing anything, AT ALL. and then you'd feel back, and start sweet talking me again. I. don't. think. I. can. continue. pulling. this. off.

short on breath. don't know what to think...