Trivial

Pathetic.

do you ever get those times when someone important to you walks out on you without saying goodbye? here we go, another depressing drama like scenario... that's not true. I am guessing I'm not the only person who has been in this position, please do try and relate with me...

so here I sit on my bed, in a dimly lit room. thinking of... you.

I hate it. I hate being suffocated in this barrier. I don't want to think of you. I don't want to behave the way I am behaving... I hate this feeling of longing. I feel so needy. I hate people who are clingy, but what do I have to say? I'm so hypocritical.

and just when you think you're getting nowhere. wasting your time, checking their msn status, checking their facebook, their blog, their formspring... everything. they come back and say "I'm here". the overwhelming joy, so constricting, distressing... demising.

transitioning between emotion to emotion confuses me. my head hurts. I can't concentrate. staring at the screen, seeing them typing, seeing the message pop up. smiling. satisfaction. what now...? I honestly think I'm becoming a little too dependent. I need space to work for my goals.

as of this moment, the only thing that matters to me is them. I can't let this continue... it isn't right...