You

it annoys me.

annoys the crap out of me; the fact that I depend on them too much really gets to me. times like these, where their social networking sites are way too important compared to me and their homework.

so as any needy girl would say, "do you want me to stay with you tonight?"... waiting for an answer along the lines of, yes, I really need you here with me. but ending up with, "only if you want to". what is that meant to me, seriously. I do want to. but I must not let you know that. why?

you are my weakness.

and if it isn't transparent enough as it is, letting you in, allowing you to walk all over me is really not what I need right now. the fact that having them by my side, to have the motivation to study is enough torture to me. I must get over this fad, this "phrase" as they would say. we've been through how many times you've wanted me out of your life. been through the attempts of leaving me behind. making up excuses saying, "I'm not a good person, I'm not worth your time".

"if feelings were that easily switched on and off like that, I wouldn't be in this mess in the first place..."

sentimental shit from people who obviously think there's something wrong with me. why is everyone playing this game? why is everyone putting on an act? why do they pretend to care? it's really beyond me, to think that everyone is only doing this for their own benefit.

but how is this beneficial to them?